I survived

I was raped and I found out I was pregnant I did not know what to do I was hurt mad 😠 and did not under1 how he could get away with it and I had this baby inside of me. that wasn't just me or was also him I cried for 2 months and as the pregnancy went a long I thought of all my options and realize that my son is not just him but also me how can I get rid of a part of me so confused 😕 I hid from everyone and when it was time I looked deep into myself and realized I am not going to kill part of me I had my son and fell in love with him now he is six years old proud of him because he just graduated and now he's in the first grade he is very intelligent he received award for math on the day of his graduation he gets straight A's and even though he is hyper because he is diagnosed with ADHD which runs to my family I do not regret my decision because I don't see the rapist I see myself because he is a part of me is the part of a soul that I gave to him because I gave him life over one simple decision making sure that I will not regret just because your child is a rapist baby does that mean that you would not love the many different now I am married with a daughter and another child on the way so all together have three kids and I am proud that I made my decision even know what happened to me was disgusting violating and PTSD over it I still stood strong cuz that's what a Survivor does so yes maybe they should get counseling for these women and maybe they would understand that you can love a baby that you didn't choose to have