Needing to vent...

I’m upset, I’m angry & I’m lost...

Each month I hope for that positive but it doesn’t come...I know there are so many who have been trying for years & worse scenarios than mine etc but I just dont understand....when will it be my turn...

4 out of my 7 bridesmaids are all pregnant atm & 3 weren’t even trying for a baby & I am beyond happy for them but sometimes I struggle & have to force myself to show happy when all I want to do is scream and cry