Like 3 times a year I actually feel semi pretty. Then once I’m like “wait no I’m actually ugly” and go back to that phase, I get really sad n wanna cry cuz I’m so tired of bring ugly. Like wtff. I hate this sm ugh. I know this doesn’t fit under mental health support necessarily but I don’t feel like changing categories plus I do have depression n anxiety so it’s not like I don’t have mental issues or whatever.

Also I’m tired of not having a bf. Like I see all these couples and get really jealous cuz I want that kind of relationship but I’m in online school , ugly, my Standards are too high, I’m not even going to college right away, I honestly feel like I’m never going to date anyone ever. I’ve never had a bf n I’m 18 for god sakes.

Someone help me or give advice. I’m gonna take a sleeping pill now so I can stop thinking for a bit.