Sorry this is so long, I haven’t got to share this much with anyone.

Back in February I had my Gyno appointment with my new Doctor as my other doctor stopped practicing. I told her about mine and my fiancé’s recent decision to try and conceive as he is 38 and no children and had always wanted kids. I am 40 with two from a previous relationship and his parents have no grandchildren. She suggested I do my blood work and we also did an ultra sound to check for a cyst I had last year in my right ovary. They called me back about a week and a half later and stated that my FSH was 11.4 and recommended I see a fertility dr. I was completely crushed for like a loser even though it was out of my control. We are getting married on the 15th of June and have used every penny we have for this wedding so a fertility doctor was out of the question for now. I cried for days, after sex I just cried and felt so embarrassed. I finally pulled my shit together and decided I would try everything that I could naturally and within my monetary mean until the end of the year and if it didn’t work the it wasn’t meant to be. I read about Vitanica Pregnancy Prep and was already taking a multi vitamin for the last few months so I ordered the Vitanica on amazon and began taking them in March along with temping still and using OPK’s 10 DPO in April I had what I though was implantation bleeding, creamy pinkish brownish discharge for a day and then it stopped the next day. My period was suppose to show up two days later but was 3 days late.. I tested and tested and they were all so negative I might have been able to return them. AF finally shoe and was a bit shorten then my normal 3 day period it was like 2-1/2 days. So I gave up everything but my prenatal.. I stopped temping, I waited until I seen EWM to test my OPK and we BD 2 days before ovulation the day and the day after. I only logged those days. 10 DPO something told me to test so I did, threw it in the trash but after 10 minutes something told me to look again so I did and seen the faintest I mean faintest line on the easy home PT. So I later naught a FR and it showed a vvvfl I mean super faint. So every day I have tested with my easyhome strips and they are getting increasingly darker but not like my LH strips they are through the roof for me. So today I tested again with a FR and with in 30 seconds the second begins to show up! I will follow up with an appointment but I just wanted to give some hope to anyone out there that felt crushed.. sometimes you gotta just let it go for a bit and give your mind and body a break. I was setting an alarm every single morning at 4am to ensure I was temping at the exact same time and making my self bonkers. I wish everyone good luck on their journey thank you all who have posted in the past and lifted my spirits or taught me stuff I never knew!