I was in last Monday for my second routine visit, and I had lost 18lbs. It was found that I have a subchorionic hemorrhage, as well. Although, the doc seemed more concerned about the weight loss and staying hydrated, thus wanted me to come back in a week instead of the usual four.

I don’t know, I just haven’t had a good time these nine weeks or so, from not being exactly ecstatic about the pregnancy to several medical issues from anxiety/depression, severe nausea/vomiting, Spina Bifida Occulta, the hemorrhage, having to go off of medications/withdrawals...it’s been a lot. I would appreciate any thoughts or prayers. I often have a fear of something being “wrong” with this baby, whether it’s autism like my first son (he’s amazing, but he struggles), or a deformity, anything at all. I just would like some good news today. I’m going to ask about medication for depression/anxiety, too. I know I need to take care of myself.

If you’re still reading, thank you.

Happy Monday, everyone!