Moral support please 😩

. β€’ 🌈 Rainbow coming 1/7/2020. 🌈

I am 6 weeks 6 days pregnant with my rainbow baby. Next Tuesday the 28th i have my first ultrasound. I feel like I’ve been pretty good about keeping my anxiety away, but today it’s extra hard 😩 i just have so much fear that this ultrasound and pregnancy will turn into what the last one did. And i can’t handle that heartache. I want to go to the doctor so bad, but on the other hand i want to avoid it at all costs cause what if something is wrong again ?! 😭

I just want to see a heartbeat and see a growing baby so bad....