I can't, I can't, I can't.

Je

Jessica
I can't have sex with my husband for two more weeks. I can't get pregnant for at least three more months. I can't be on birth control because of testing we need to do and potential health risks to me (yet I need to be on birth control for hormone issues). I can't hold my baby boy in my arms and bring him home in February like I was supposed to. I can't be in control of my own life. I believe in God and I know I need to trust but I'm so angry right now. I want to be pregnant with my baby boy. I want to be able to have carried him to term. If I can't do that, I want to be able to be with my husband, i don't want to have to wait for a family here on earth. I don't want to hear "you can't!" 
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So sorry to hear about your loss.  I was also due in February and lost my baby 2 weeks ago.  This post-miscarriage time had been so heart wrenching.  Waiting for AF, wanting to try again but can't, hurting about the loss of our baby- I just wish I could wake up and be pregnant again 😔  

Ch

Chelsea • Sep 23, 2015
Agreed. Were you induced to deliver? I had a d&c.; I was due feb 20. Do you have answers as to what happened? We are still waiting there results of our karotype and genetic testing.

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Jessica • Sep 23, 2015
Thank you for understanding. We delivered Abel 2 weeks ago too. We were due feb 8. When were you due? This is by far the hardest thing made even harder by being forced into a limbo state. . .