I have finally accepted that I have had a missed miscarriage and that my pregnancy stopped at 6 weeks. I will never understand because I still haven't miscarried and the thought of having a D&C isn't one that I want to endure. It truly is one of the hardest things to go through and after trying for a year and a half plus endometriosis and 4 surgeries. Then I asked God to let me have a baby around Christmas because my daughter was born in 2003 on 12/27 at 24 weeks but passed 2 months later. I find out that my due date is 12/26 just like I prayed for. My husband and I believed everything was going to be okay. I know it will be okay but it just hurts so bad. All I can think about is what was supposed to be and how connected I was already. It truly isn't something that you just forget and its going to be a journey. I promised I wouldn't let fear steal what Gods will is for my future. I know there has to be a rainbow waiting on the other side.