Soulmates

I kinda thought it'd be nice to brag about my mans. I've actually known him since grade two, and there was a point he saved me from a chick beating me.with a baseball bat. We have so many funny stories to bring up from our childhood and a connection running years into the past. After being moved all around the country i never forgot him, and eventually was able to get back into contact with him. Of course i hust had to admit the grade three crush i had on him and we started online dating. It was great, id sit outside my junior high for wifi and talk to him until it got dark, eventually i moved back to the city he lived in. Sadly, i have alot of mental issues, and after seeing hoe happy he was i left him after year two of online dating and such and finally seeing him. I didnt want to hurt him or ruin his life.

Skip ahead a year i talk to him again, we bond, and he's shocked at all thats gone on, including a still* open case on being mosted by my father and being sexually harrassed at school. Eventually we shared some sweet sentiments and started dating again. After two weeks i went to see him...which ended up in a kind of pressured loss of my virginity, followed by almost a fuck buddy relationship. Everything was care free but about three months on we started getting serious. Between him realizing my mental issues and that i loved him he had a hard time settling, every other relationship never lasted more then three months because the girl would cheat. But we stuck through it, even through my depression and other health issues i reassured him that i loved him and was the only one for me. We ended up arguing alot, but over stupid shit, odd comments and honestly just our daily build up of pain snapping on eachother and we knew neither of us meant it. But four or five months ago i had a snap out. Went craxy and locked.myself in a bathroom screaming about killing myself in a mental frenzy, and it really shocked him. Until then i did my best to.hide everything...but, it resulted badly at first. He didnt know how to react, so, from past experience he cheated online, though more in a sexual manner then an emotional connection. At the time i was heartbroken, and when he saw the hesrtracinf shock and brokenness instead of spite he cried with me and begged my forgiveness. He expected the same as everyone else, run and chest back, call him a one night stand and worthless. Since then he's never done it again, he encourages me to check his phone when he wants and is very caring, he visits me everyday and accompanies me to my health appointments and everything, even calls himself not worthy of him and tries to say he's not worth all my unconditional love. And after the second chance all it has been is love when he realized im not going anywhere, we do everything together, and even getting new apps or talking to people he asks me before he does to make sure i know and im ok with it. Hes an absolute sweetheart and even when i just got my iud he rushed over to help with my cramps and nausea and talked me through it all, ran his hands through my hair and down my back.

I dont blame him for his mistakes he has been heavily abused in his life. A drugaric mother, bad foster parents and many of his girlfriends chested on him or used him, one even used to burn cigarettes into his arms. All he does is care after realizing im not like the others, we love eachother unconditionally and he reassures and helps me through my mental illness.

Two years on call, six months in person. A yesr to think and noe a rollercoaster of a year that noe has turned into five months of understanding and communication. He helps me with everything, and always makes sure im ok and i do the same for him. I love him with all my heart, and am so thankful that after the big mistake he realized what he had and shaped up to show me that im not wrong to put all that love into him.

Not only that but sexually he's understanding, he listens to what i tell him and knows it later. He knows what things to avoid and exactly what l like, and every time we have sex he makes it his duty to make sure i orgasm. Sometimes we wont even have sex and he doesnt get off but he still makes sure i do. Hes just such an amazing caring guy and im glad to have him.