Having a baby ruined my sex life

I am 3 months pp and it's to the point where sex does not hurt anymore. But I almost feel nothing for sensation. I think I feel so loose, and the more turned on i get the looser I feel.. I hate having sex because I end up bawling my eyes out because it really wasnt that enjoyable. Sex just is getting to the point I want nothing to do with it because I end up getting so insecure.

I have had extreme body insecurities my whole life and I was fairly tiny before and my baby has a big head ha, but I only ended up with a first degree tear...

Please given me encouragement that it will get tighter... or at least get more sensation. Or let me know I am not alone. 😪