Am I crazy? Sorry long post

So over the weekend I told my ex I was going to come and get the rest of my things to finally cut ties. I was tired of caring for him and helping and respecting him and not receiving the same. He still believes bc he has no car I should be bringing my son to him. I've already told him he needs to come get him and then I will pick him up. He says he's not ok with paying to see his son. I'm pregnant with a girl now that he doesn't acknowledge. Well the whole conversation blew up after I said that. He yelled at me, continued to talk over me, called me a rapist, a scam artist, said I only wanted kids from, said i was selfish, and that I used him. I snapped and told him to kill himself. I felt terrible immediately and apologized as well bc I didn't mean it. So he went and told his friend bits and pieces of the story and not the full truth. Now to elaborate on the "rapist" comment. Before we broke you he made a bet with me continuously that I couldn't steal a nut from him. I finally took him up on the offer he asked me to stop.i was about to get up and he said keep going and he didn't care. So we finished. I got a notification on my phone saying I was supposed to ovulating so I went and got plan b. But ever since then he continues to like about what happened. He's been so disrespectful this whole pregnancy. I've had enough. His friend took it upon herself to message me not knowing the whole story but had her mind made up.