I am just writing this for a little encouragement. This past year has been so hard on me. I have had 3 losses since March 2018(miscarraiges)- to top it off my baby brother committed suicide in December 2018. I'm having a hard time coming to terms that my brother is gone. To make the situation worse I lost my boyfriend 3 years ago to suicide as well so by losing my brother its bringing up all of those past emotions. Just feeling so defeated with life and how not being able to get pregnant and stay pregnant is putting so much stress on me. Any words of encouragement. Anyone ever been through 2 suicides and how did you cope? My brother was 21 when he passed and my boyfriend was 22 at the time of his passing. I'm 25 years old and have a 7 year old from a previous marraige. I love my son so much and he wants a sibling so bad. Me and my now fiance have been trying almost 2 years and I just dont know how to feel. Plus my grandma passed may 15th of this year. Please someone talk to me.