I was due 1/14/20. I am in the process of miscarrying. 😭 I should be 6 weeks and 2 days today. My baby measured at 5 weeks 1 day 2 days ago via transvaginal ultrasound and my HCG levels are only 486 as of yesterday...

I started bleeding after a transvaginal ultrasound done on Tuesday, 2 days ago.

My husband works out of town and it hurt so bad to see him leave in tears, he never cries. I was keeping a pregnancy journal. I sat up after my husband left at 3 am this morning and wrote a goodbye letter to our baby, even though they haven't said it's a miscarriage yet, I know it is. They are just saying it doesn't look like it's a viable pregnancy with the levels being so low and the bleeding...

I hurt so bad. I miscarried last December. My husband is a truck driver that drives long distance and timing is always off. This time timing was perfect! we got pregnant the first cycle trying after the miscarriage, and this baby was due on my deceased grandfather's birthday... I'm 40 years old and I've miscarried before. I really thought this was a sign that it was our time... I'm disappointed but I still trust God and his plan. I feel comforted knowing these things happen and there's nothing wrong with me or my body. Babies are true miracles and blessings. So much has to go right, at the right time to get the blessings of delivering a healthy baby. We are so strong and watching you all go through losses and carrying to term never ceases to amaze me.