My daughter was born at 37.4 weeks only 2.2kg due to placental insufficiency. We didn’t end up in NICU but I was on my toes the whole time since we got home. With no sleep and so much stress I made sure she didn’t even lose a single gram by her 1st week appointment.

She’s 10 weeks old now and is a healthy happy growing baby and wears 3 months old clothes.

She has been sleeping with us in bed since day one cuz she needed a lot of care and also she wouldn’t sleep properly unless she is really close to me but it’s getting harder to cosleep cuz she rolls towards me and I’m forced to move to the edge of the bed and end up not sleeping or having a lot of body pain.

I’ve been thinking of moving her to her crib but it’s not just her who has separation issues. It’s me as well. I feel like I won’t sleep well (if I sleep at all) if I put her in her crib at night. I’d be constantly checking on her (her crib is in our room) especially after she had really bad clogged nose 2 days ago and she couldn’t breathe. I was able to quickly help her just cuz she was kicking me in her sleep and that woke me up. Now I feel like the only way to do this is to suck it up and try putting her in her crib for couple of nights but even the thought of it makes my race and gives me anxiety.

Anyone feel this way?