I REALLY WANT TO TEST!!!! But I don’t want to be disappointed & I don’t want a faint line to the point that I can barely see it. I need a strong clear line or I’ll go insane!

I had a miscarriage in March.. so part of me is just worried in general & not ready for the positive & the worry that comes with it. But here I am, up at 3:42 am... because I can’t sleep. I’ve been experiencing mild cramping & pulling on my left side.

AF is due in two days so here I am.. impatiently waiting. Hoping. Praying. God, let this be my month. I mean, if I’m pregnant today I’ll be pregnant next week so I can wait to test.... but I just don’t want to.