Why doesn’t he notice me? i’m so tired

I’m tired, i’ve been with him for 3 years.

he treats me like crap but tells me its my fault i can never win, even at the end i believe it’s all my fault. sure i get angry fast and i scream but there’s always a reason behind why i do it, i’m tired.

we rent together and we share the same bed, how do i leave this toxic relationship? is it all my fault? i don’t know what to do anymore, someone needs to help me. i’m feeling depressed and suicidal because of all the shit he puts be through.

i’m tired of cleaning up after him after i work a long 10 hours, and when i ask him to help he tells me he worked all day. i’m tired of being treated this way? will he ever realize? what do i do. please help me i’m so done with trying anymore, life seems pathetic. i’m tired.