I’ve been alone in a hotel near the hospital for two weeks now, my family and home are over 3 hours away.

Baby has IUGR and TOF so gets monitoring every second day.

They thinking baby will need to be delivered by 34 weeks (currently 32) because he won’t be growing then.

I don’t know if I’ll get to deliver vaginally or csection and the not knowing is just scaring me.

I know he’ll be ok eventually but my anxiety is just through the roof and I feel so alone.

I’m wanting to nest but I’m in a hotel so it’s just not an option.

Before I came here I would just go sit in the nursery and everything would seem ok but now I don’t have the option.

I’m so tired and anxious, I just want to skip ahead to baby being here and healthy.