Okay, so my ex and I broke up yesterday. Mainly because I went out with my guy friend (whom he doesn’t like ) to the movies to see Aladdin. Side note ( he has a girl best friend that he talks to all the time and doesn’t like me but he always talked to her. She would FaceTime him just to show him her outfits or ask about how she looks, basically wanting his approval because I felt like she liked him). I know I made a few mistakes before nothing like cheating or anything like that but things I wish I could redo.

Anyways, he got mad at me for going to the movies and basically broke up with me. He is already talking to a new girl, he showed me the messages today.. like they were friends before and he just “happen” to see her yesterday after we broke up. Well, he proceeds to tell me that he still loves me but we can never be together again. He wants to be friends and, told me that I give the best blow jobs in the world and he doesn’t want to miss out on that. He wants to be friends with benefits until he finds a gf or him him and this girl eventually get together.

I know this is so stupid of me for even thinking about it but it sucks because I love him so much. And I can’t really imagine my life without him. He calls me everyday on his way to work which is at 4am and I don’t have to be up til 7am but I would still talk to him. He called me this morning and we talked and that’s when he made the suggestion.. the sad thing is he keeps calling me “baby” or “S” which bugs me because we aren’t together and he kept reminding me today that we weren’t ever going to be back together.

So tonight he called me, and basically wanted me to help him with his nutrition because he is working out more and wants to lose weight and gain muscle. I lost over 100lbs and so he wanted my insight. He told me, that he needed my help and that when he finds a girlfriend I still can’t stop helping him. He is like I need you to continue to help me even if I find someone else because you know what you are doing..

Sorry, this is so long but I don’t know what to do. Part of me wants to tell him to leave me alone just fly a kite but the other part of me wants just to be near him. I need advice please.