I dealt with abuse growing up and I started self harming (cutting). I joined the military and had a lot of trouble with sexual assaults happening to me, multiple occasions. I went overseas and that’s when everything kind of came crashing down on me hard. I was in and out of intensive therapy care facilities for about 6 months. To this day I still struggle with self harm, mainly wanting to cut or harming myself in other destructive ways such as forcing myself not to eat or throwing up after I eat. I have been in and out of therapy for years, I’m also very injured back/hip problems, migraines and now knee problems. All of the physical pain makes the mental pain worse. I needed to vent but I’m open for literally any comments here.