It is my birthday in 3 days and I feel more and more depressed.

I think it's related, I'm going to be 20 and I have always seen this day as big day...but I feel soo lonely, gonna have diner in a restaurant with my parents and my sister and I can't help felling lonely, without friends, like nobody cares for me.

I won't throw a party, it's not my thing.

I am just afraid to not receive any messages from people that day...

Also it's end of term, uni is over, got to go back home where I feel just uncomfortable.

I feel like a huge emptiness inside, I think I am depressing again.