I’ve always been pretty confident in myself, and down to earth about my flaws.

But there is a friend I’ve known a few years and I’ve grown so jealous of her it’s ridiculous. I hate that I feel this way. It’s frustrating. I won’t go into the petty details of why I’m jealous but recently she found out she was pregnant and announced it. I couldn’t even speak. I just got such an extreme sick feeling in my stomach.

I’m so mad I’ve been working so hard to get to the point that my husband and I can afford to start trying for a baby. But her family paid for all her college, got her a nice job part time in her field, and she married a military man that was already an E5. She has never had to pay for anything and her family funds everything and vacations etc. so obviously she can afford to have a baby and buy a house and everything is perfect.

I hate how hard my life has been and then I see people like her that are more popular, beautiful, and get handed everything in life. She literally “fell in love” and married this guy after knowing him less than a year. She had a massive wedding with a freakin drone videoing the whole thing 😂😂😂 her parents paid for the whole thing. I just can’t deal. My family refused to even show up to my wedding!

I know I’m being dumb and jealous and it leaves me feeling petty and disgusting. Please don’t comment and make me feel even worse, I know how bad it is and demoralizing. I’d stop feeling this way immediately if I could. I’m working through it and part of that requires me to admit it and make it real to myself. If you’re disgusted by my jealousy please just refrain from commenting. Thank you for letting me vent.