Internal ultrasound refusal...

Meagan

Hi ladies, I have a second ultrasound booked for this morning and I’m absolutely torn as to whether or not to refuse an transvaginal scan again this week. Last week I went in for the dating ultrasound and it turned out that I have two sacs...one was measuring 6w2d and the other 7w4d. I only allowed for an abdominal scan because I’ve had four miscarriages around 8.5 weeks and the babies always pass away same day or a few days after I get a transvaginal scan even when everything is fine leading up to that point. I have never been able to just have abdominal to get info on my babies because I have IBS and apparently the gasses make it very hard to see anything. I had a septum which is the likely culprit of my miscarriages and it’s since been removed. This is my first pregnancy since that surgery. Last week they couldn’t see enough to make a determination as to whether there are babies in both sacs so I’m going back today. Would you refuse a transvaginal until you were past the 8.5 week mark? When I reverse engineer the scenario, I would be devastated if I were to miscarry one or both babies around the ultrasound date...but I also need to know how many are truly in there. (Not looking for advice about empty sacs, to be honest I don’t want to hear it or get worked up when the doc said it’s not a problem right now) Thanks for any advice/pep talks in advance 💛 the ultrasound tech made me feel like a nuisance last week for refusing but I can’t help but feel like I’m warranted in my fear around transvaginal ultrasounds. The definition of insanity is doing the same thing repeatedly and expecting different results (lol) so maybe I’m actually not the insane one in this equation?