I have lost my 2nd pregnancy in a row and I just don’t know how to cope with this right now. I feel like a failure and even though no matter how many times people tell me is not my fault I still blame myself. Maybe if I ate better, maybe if I drank way more water and avoid sodas completely, maybe if I didn’t take any medicine (even when Dr said it was ok for me to take), maybe if I didn’t have sex that often, maybe if I didn’t went on family outings and walked too much, maybe if I didn’t sleep sideways almost facing down, maybe if I didn’t cross my legs as often, maybe if I wasn’t overweight to begin with (220lbs), maybe if I wasn’t older (35). Maybe just maybe I would be a mother by now and my wonderful husband could be a father. I just don’t understand what’s wrong with me right now and maybe I might never get it. We want to be parents and have a family so bad trying for almost 7 years and only gotten pregnant twice and lost both (12/2017 and now 5/29). We are (specially me) starting to loose hope.

Thanks for reading, somethings I just don’t feel like I can say to my family and this group allows me to vent all my feelings good or bad so thanks. 😭😔