I don't even know

So long story short I've been struggling to get pregnant. I've been on multiple birth controls. Finally get off then I bleed for a VERY long time . Then I end up getting a D&C last year in may. Tried clomid and had no luck. October and November of last year I started bleeding again. Doctor gave me progesterone! Didn't work. Then I said I would give all my problems to God and stop all these medications! I had my first normal cycle all by myself at the end of March and April. My usual five days. Now it's time for my cycle again and no show. This is suppose to be day 1. Idk how to feel. Should I get excited because it's possible I can get pregnant, is my body playing tricks which it has before, or is it just late? I've had so many problems and let downs that I'm numb