Feeling so defeated

Manda • Mom of 2 boys

I am so upset and over it. I have bled 3 times now during my pregnancy I do not feel joy or excitement I live in a constant state of panic and fear. I have to wait 12 days for my growth scan to find out if he's growing like he should I haven't gained any weight the dr has zero idea why I'm bleeding he's checked everything and has no clue. I am just so over it I'm so tired of being afraid