It’s been 2 years since I had my first and only abortion. I didn’t think it would still affect me so much but it’s hard you know? Honestly the whole situation was pretty fucked up to begin with. I was with a guy for 4 years on and off and him and I had broken up officially and two weeks later I hooked up with one of my best friends. I found out I was pregnant June 10th, 2017. Right after I did what I did. I told my best friend immediately because I had a feeling it was his. On June 20th I got my ultrasound, my very first one.. and I found out I was 5 weeks, 5 days pregnant. I was terrified because at that point I didn’t know who’s it would be. My dad found out that same day because my blood results came in the mail (completely destroyed where the remaining pieces came in a plastic bag) he gave me a long talk about the best decision to make at that time. My best decision was to have an abortion for many reasons. Everyone was on board with it but me. I still had mixed feelings about it. My best friend Rosmery was there by my side for the entire process from when I found out to the day it was all over. I had my abortion on June 23rd @ 9:45 in the morning. I chose the pill method. For those who do not know the pill method, in the drs office you take a pill that stops the hormones. 24 hours later you take 4 pills that you put in your cheeks and let it dissolve in your mouth for I think it was 5 minutes. Longest time in my life. I was struggling to take them. I didn’t wanna do it. I was talking to Rosmery the whole time crying and she said if I really didn’t want to we can find out how to reverse the first pill. But I knew I had to do it. So I did it. It took about 3 minutes til I felt like I had to pee and when I went to the bathroom.. it was over. My best friend came to my house all the way from Jersey right after. I love her so much. She brought me a heating pad and other things that helped me out. She stayed with me that whole day. I had to go for a follow up a week later to confirm it was finished and the day after I found out I have the rH negative gene. That week was the hardest because I had to struggle to go get a shot and the drs office wasn’t helping me correctly and I was just furious. It’s coming back to be around that time and I’m just having the blues. My boyfriend had a daughter and I love her to death but I wish I was a mom. I just have to wait for the right time.