Need to vent. AF due today BFN ahhhhhh frustrated.

Cynthia • I`m 33 my Husband is 37 we have 2 beautiful baby girls, and have 2 fur babies. First daughter conceived IUI. Second daughter is a miracle.
I'm going crazy so AF was due today no sign of her. This morning got BFN that doesn't 100% deter me since I have a short luthate and today is 10dpo so fingers crossed and lots of luck and baby dust, but I'm going crazy I just want to run in the bathroom and pee on a stick til one has 2 lines why does our body play games. I am refusing to disappoint myself tomorrow morning " I WILL NOT PEE ON A STICK" I'm going to try and wait till 14DPO if no AF I'll try again. Please everyone cross your stuff and wish me luck I'm so ready for a baby. This is month 5 of TTC#1.