A big conversation

My boyfriend and I have been struggling a lot lately. We’ve been long distance for all 3 years, we were nearly engaged, and took quite a few large steps back in our relationship recently. It’s been really hard to connect, and trying to stay interested in each other is a feat on its own. We see each other every couple months, and I’m going to see him soon, and it’s been a little difficult to be excited about it. Last night we were facetiming, and somehow we got on the topic of sexual desires and his experiences with his ex (which was super intriguing to me for some reason. I just wanted to know more), and we talked for hours about things were into that we never ever talked about, things that totally shocked, but excited, me came out and it just felt so new. We talked to each other in such a comfortable way and it felt so refreshing. I felt like I was opening up to my best friend instead of just my boyfriend, and I just felt a whole new attraction to him. I was able to say things without embarrassment or fear of him judging me. Even though it was a sexual conversation, I think it brought our feelings for each other into a new light and the openness of it really reset some things. Being able to talk about his relationship with his ex in such an intimate way was also incredibly liberating, because it’s something we always avoided. I never felt compared but it really opened my eyes to how our relationship is different from what theirs was, and how I’m better or things that she may have done for him that I don’t. I feel such a huge change in my connection to him and I’m really just thriving on it. Yeah