So my sister and I are literally best friends. We were pregnant with our first and second babies together (they are almost 3 and 9 months). She’s pregnant again, due in December.

We hang out almost every Thursday, because our husbands work long hours that day. We take care of our 4 kids, and love spending time together. I love her kids like they are mine, and vice versa.

Well, she just informed our family that her and her husband are moving to Colorado (were in NY) in 3 months! His mom and sister live out there, and he feels called to be out there with them at this point in life.

Long story short, we are Christians. There was a funeral this Saturday for a good friend (also the pastors brother) from our church who suddenly passed. Our pastor did an amazing service for him. Anyways, point of the story is, you don’t know when you or your loved one is going to die. We need to share the gospel, and it’s urgent. So, that being said, he really feels God is calling them to live out there and be a witness to his family (all of our family is saved).

Anyway, I am DEVASTATED. I am so happy for them and can only see good things for their family....but I’m still DEVASTATED. Who will help me raise my kids when my husband works long days? Who will run up to me and call me Guppy (my niece can’t say Becky so my new name is Guppy 😍)? How can I not ache to see this new baby when it’s born in December and I’m not there to hold them? Our girls love each other sooo much, how soul crushing will it be to hear “mama, is Bella coming over today?” 💔😭

Just......my whole world just collapsed last night when she told me.

Plus, I was 2 weeks late for my period (although getting negative tests) and really hoping we were going to have another pregnancy together....but I think I’m getting my period soon. 😭

I just can’t today and want life to stop for a little while.

Guppy and Bella

Maddie and Bella