This sleep deprivation is really getting to me. I woke up with diarrhea and through up. I think from nerves. I can’t calm down. I had to cancel my 6 week post partum appointment. When I finally have the chance to sleep I can’t. My husband started a new job so he’s in la la land not even with it and not helping.

To make matters much worse - Saturday l left my 6 week old with my husband for an hour. I pull into the driveway and he calls saying she’s fine but I had her on the boppy and left the room and she ended up falling onto the wood floor. She was crying but she went back ro sleep. I get in the house and go to her and realize she not opening her eyes. It was the scariest moment of my life. She was unresponsive. I called 911... 5 cop cars. 2 ambulances. Fire dept .. we had to rush her to the pediatric trauma unit. Thank gd when we got there she came to and was actually smiling at the doctors. The cat scan was negative. The little hospital gown they gave her was so pathetic and sad. She’s ok but I’m just so sick and traumatized from the whole thing.

My in laws are saying to hire help. Mt mom is saying that’s not the answer you have a good baby. I feel like they think I’m the problem like I can’t handle taking care of her. I said well if my husband was better with her I wouldn’t have this issue. I just feel like I’m breaking down