It’s been a few weeks now, but the pain still feels fresh. I had been taking care of a sweet baby girl for a friend of mine whenever she worked or needed me. Which was quite a lot. I sometimes stayed for a week or so at a time and even kept the little one over night at my home. I’d been there throughout the pregnancy and through every milestone this sweet girl had over the last 6 months of her life. And then due to some very serious issues and lots of prayer, I felt it was God’s will for me to remove myself from my friends life. I didn’t want to do that. I loved that child as if she were my own. I’ve had to pack up all my baby things I’d gotten for her because it hurts to look at them. My heart is truly broken.

My husband and I have been TTC for about 4 months now, which isn’t long at all. It’s starting to feel like an eternity though. I just am praying so hard for God to fill my arms with another baby to give all this love too. Any words of encouragement would be helpful right now.