Today I am 5 days overdue and very very anxious. My mom, dad and sister have been in town since Saturday and my brother, aunt, and grandma flew in yesterday - and everyone is waiting on baby's arrival. I have woken up every day for the last three days and cried because no labor yet, I know it's common to be up to two weeks late with the first, and I'm frustrated that my family is putting unnecessary pressure on me for something I have no control over.

I know my family loves me, and they want me to feel relaxed and supported going into this birth, but I can't help but feel with another 6 people coming in to town this weekend, that 11 people are watching me at all times and have spent a good deal of money and time coming to visit. I am anxious and frustrated that I may not deliver before they start leaving on Sunday and it leaves me feeling helpless and incompetent and so every morning I wake up and cry, just waiting for the dissapointment everyone will feel that I have to go to work again. 

Ultimately I know it's not my fault, and that I never encouraged anyone to make travel plans prior to baby's birth, but I'm still upset. 

Thanks for listening!