My son will be 4 weeks old tomorrow. I don't know if I'm having postpartum depression or anxiety or if this is just normal. But I'm really struggling. The transition to 3 kids is overwhelming. My older 2 have been fighting so much more lately. I'm breastfeeding so I cant get up every time I hear a fight break out in the other room. I keep waking up in the morning to my newborn and my 2 year old both having poopy diapers at the same time. I get them both changed, then one of them poops again. My spouse doesn't get it. He just keeps saying "you wanted this" or "you wanted another kid" or "this is your dream to be a stay at home mom". Like ok that doesn't mean this isn't hard. Both kids crying at the same time while you have a headache. I haven't slept through the night in a month. That's reason enough to crack up. My newborn is so fussy with gas pains all day. He cries every time I set him down. So I cant get anything else done. Every time I get him and myself to nap, my alarm goes off to get my 6 year old from school, so I have to wake up and wake the newborn up. He cries the whole car ride. It is just stressful. And then my husband said I'm treating him like crap. Because I don't feel sexual lately. I'm sorry I'm cleaning and changing diapers and cooking and cant stop to be all lovey dovey on demand. I need help. I'm really not happy lately. This is so hard and it feels like its never going to end. And I feel like everyone expects me to be strong. But I want to admit to someone that I'm loosing it.