I’m struggling to be free of my past..

I don’t really have anyone to talk about this to because I never really told any of my friends about what my ex had done to me. I dated a guy for almost three years throughout high school and past graduation. He would force me to give him blowjobs to the point where I’d throw up. I would tell him I didn’t want sex but he’d pressure me into it. I broke up with him and now I have a caring, loving boyfriend who is still helping me get over my past to this day. One thing keeps setting me back though. His best friend is friends with my ex. I was thinking a little bit ago that I’m finically free of anything to do with my ex but then I realize. Wait. I’m not. My boyfriends BFF always asks him to hang out with them and shit. Even though he KNOWS what my ex did to me. My boyfriends best friend said that he doubts it ever happened. And that I probably made it up. Which set me off. I was going to let this guy live with us in our apartment. Fuck that. I just want to be free of everything that happened in my past. I wanna be done with it. I’m over him but they keep bringing him up. I want him out of my life. Never to be seen again. I don’t know what to do