Angry

Ive been trying to conceive for 6 damn years. I have type 2 diabetes and my a1c was 12 at one point. In January it was 9, march it was 8.7. I busted my butt for the next 3 months, took my meds and injections religiously and got my blood sugar down from 400 to 75. Just tested my a1c and its 6.3. My primary was over the moon and so happy and she said she felt I was clear to start clomid. I am over joyed and so is my husband. So i message my obgyn and what does she say? Nope 6.3 is still too high. I want it below 6, try again in 3 months. Im trying here guys to be calm and rational but i cant be. Im angry, and im sad and i just want to break something. I hate this all so much and I am fighting the urge to just give up. Im tired of the painful injections multiple times a day and the meds that make me puke and hurt and shake. I hate all of this and it feels like it is never going to happen.