I have so many medical problems.

I have medical problems from head to toe and I’m just so depressed lately. I was a premie born at 31 weeks..Doctors believe many of my issues are related to my early arrival into this world. I have severe anxiety. I have tried medications and therapy but it’s something I continue to live with each and every day. I have bad eyesight and have had glasses since I was 5. I have terrible teeth. They are too soft and don’t have enough enamel so no matter how well I brush them I always have problems and am always getting dental work. I have severe asthma so I can’t breathe normally and it holds me back from being as active as I’d like. I suffer from allergies and chronic sinusitis. I’ve had to have sinus surgeries as well as allergy shots. I have a heart murmur they thought I would grow out of but I’m 25 and it’s still here so yet another echo is in my future. I have PCOS so I don’t menstruated regularly, which means I don’t ovulate regularly, which means I have infertility issues as well as being overweight. I follow a strict diet and exercise to the best of my ability but can’t seem to lose weight. I have a skin condition called keratosis pilaris so I have red bumps all over my arms, legs, and buttocks. They are itchy and very unsightly. And last but not least I have thick ingrown toenails which are painful and ugly. I seriously hate myself. I hate my body. I try to appreciate my life. I’m alive and I am able to hold a job and have a fiancé who loves me. I have dogs that I treat like my babies. I have many problems but many people have it much worse. I am usually pretty outgoing about everything but lately I just feel defeated and like I don’t want to live this way anymore.