Iv been trying for four years with low sperm count. Tried multiple IUIs and don’t have money for <a href="https://glowing.com/glow-fertility-program">IVF</a>. Just found out today at dinner that my sister is pregnant after only trying for 3 months. I know I should be happy for her but all I feel is jealousy and bitterness. I’m the older sister it was suppose to be that game my family a grandchild first. I’m so hurt right now and upset. Part of me wants nothing to do with any of her pregnancy and baby the other part of me knows that she would be there for me so I need to be there for her. So many mixed emotions and heartache on my end.