Mama needs swim suit advice...

Sorry for the quality of the picture. It’s a screenshot from a video I sent my best friend.

I am 5 months postpartum and ordered this swimming suit online. It definitely doesn’t look like what I pictured but I think it’s because I’m not used to this “new” body yet. I gained 51 pounds during my pregnancy and have 20 more to lose.

I KNOW it’s not the most flattering swimming suit. Part of me feels like “fuck it. This is my body and this is my swimming suit” but another part of me doesn’t want people to run away screaming. My husband and I are taking my son on a family vacation in a few weeks and I want to take my son to the beach. I just am not sure what to do. I don’t want to have yet another summer in jogging shorts and a T-shirt at the beach. My husband loves it but he’s biased.