This is my story

It started then end of freshman year in high school i was 15 i had seen him around and had had very little interaction he was super popular very well liked also known for being a fuck boy

At the time a major death in my family had occurred and i was avoiding it so I didn’t want to be home and since it was summer I stayed basically every night at my friend C’s house

C posted a video of me on Snapchat One night and that’s when it started he slid in and asked for my snap and we began talking I wasn’t in a good mental space (and now looking back he knew that )we kept talking for days and it was a sexual relationship from the beginning but I made 10000000000% clear I wasn’t going to have sex I was a virgin

On the first night we hung out it was with C and his cousin/ her boyfriend

We were flirting all night and then at one point making out where we were was by an exit side door and he tried to get me to go out the doors with him I knew nothing good would come of it so I said no which I turn he continue to Insist to the point of literally physically dragging to the doors I managed to wrap my arms around a railing as he was dragging my body meanwhile no one in the whole giant bowling alley did anything to help I was asking for help I obvious needed it and no one not even my friends did anything he eventually stopped and we continued our night and went home

Starting that Night he would threaten to come over to my house and wake up my parents and he would start showing up at my house every night uninvited and sometimes I would sneak out with him and go to party’s or just hang out we had done things like oral sex and stuff which I was okay with

Eventually he began to txt me, call me on a whole new level like constantly insane to he would show up at my house every night and say If i didn’t let him in he would scream and wake up my parents and he began using things he had somehow gotten out of me in conversation to manipulate and scare me I would lay in my room in the pitch black evrynight crying in silence because I knew he was going to show up

One night he showed up and was extra angry I let him in and he seemed off but I didn’t know why

We began kissing and fooling around and he asked if I wanted to have sex I said no and then we continued on kissing and stuff and he would try again continuously at it I would keep saying no and kinda brushing it off at one point I sat up and scooted to the end of the bed to let things kinda of cool off for a min and after a few seconds he grabbed my shoulder and pulled me back up and then proceeded to lay me down and get on top of me he leaned down and continued to kiss me and rub my vagina with his penis. And I pulled away and said stop we’re not having sex I tried to sit up to push him off and he became very aggressive he pushed me down held my arms down put all his wait on top of me I said to stop and then began to rape me I froze I couldn’t believe what was happening I was in so much pain and I was so scared after a few moment It was like all my fear and or rage just bursted out of me and I managed to get him off of me when he was off he looked at me and just started at me like a tree had fallen on me he then plopped down on the bed next to me looked at his penis and said head is the least you could do I didn’t move and then he said do it or I’ll scream and so I did after he crawled out of my window and it was over

I never said anything to anyone about what happened he continued to become more hostile and aggressive he was stalking me he would get burned phones create new accounts continued to show up at my house every night and he had managed to isolate me from everyone but he would do it in a way that was so seemingly public that I didn’t understand how no one else saw what was happening he even was at C’s house with his cousin and had her call me on the phone and put it one speaker and then said hey C ask (me) for tips on head she gives the best and just continues on screaming and ranting in front of a whole bunch of people that were there about how good I was and all this stuff C and I were completely silent on the phone I just cried in silence

After school had started I was talking to a boy and he found who it was and told him we were together and then told me he would “fucking kill me if I ever talked to another guy again” he threatened the guy and he continued doing this for a year I eventually told him if he didn’t leave me alone for good that I would go to the cops and tell them everything he was 19-20 so I told him it would ruin his life

I have always felt this was my fault whenever I speak about Ik I never say what happened that night just that he stalked me and I never say how bad it really was when It was happening I tried to tell people but I was terrified so I would tell random people he was stalking me and threatening to kill me but I would tell people who i knew couldn’t really do anything or wouldn’t know what to do