Okay so... I love guys and everything but girls turn me on as well so basically I'm bi.

Im 17 and kind of fat I guess, for years I said I want to have sex for the first time when I'm smaller but I'm scared that I'll start feeling bad cause I'll be like I'm just getting the attention now.

So I think I want to lose it now when I'm fat. So I can feel okay, but I'm too scared to lose it to a guy cause I feel insecure and shit and I've been with a few girls. Kissing and touching and stuff.

So I want to lose my virginity to a girl, I don't even know if that's possible or it counts but that's what I've been wanting for a while but where I like doesn't really have many lesbians

I also want to lose it to someone older 😂 with experience you know

It's just something I've been thinking about this and yeah...