(I guess this might be triggering..) When I was younger, X (what I am going to call him), a family member knew a lot more about sex than I did, wanted practice, so he would "know what he was doing" when he had sex with a girl eventually. I thought this is what all people did, so even though I knew something was off, I still went through with it. (Rewind sorry) Before I ever agreed to anything, he would always badger me to try it with him, and my decision was also made because I thought he would finally stop after I did what he wanted. He seemed to get really excited when I basically said yes, and immeaditly he wanted me to take off my clothes, and this made me super uncomfortable. I don't remember exactly what age this was, but I am sure it was somewhere between 3rd and 6th grade years. He said I would get in trouble and he would tell somebody if I didn't take off my clothes. Fearing the worst, I took off my pants and tried to keep myself covered, while he got naked. He laid down on the floor and continued to threaten me until I kneeled over him. Whenever he would try to touch me or try to get inside, I would try to stand and go to put on my pants and leave. The whole thing was super weird and I didn't want to. He continued to try to get inside, and when he finally gave up, I got out of there as fast as I could. There was another incident where he said we would play a game, (which I later learned was a hand job), and another where he "wanted to return the favor" so he tried to do oral. I haven't thought about this in so long but it is really starting to  bother me, and I don't know what to call it. Please help.. :(