When to try again

It seems like I keep losing babies left to right. My December 19, 2019 baby:

And now my January 22, 2020 baby:

I don't know what to do with myself. I never had difficulties with my first born son. It seems like it's so easy for me to get pregnant, but so difficult to stay pregnant. I'm so sad. I remember last week how I was at the thrift store buying lots of girl clothes and bows because I had a gut feeling I was having a girl since my symptoms disappeared. It's not fair how druggies can stay pregnant, or how people that don't want their babies stay pregnant. I wanted both of these sweet babies. I lost my Dec baby at 5 weeks and 1 day, and my Jan baby at 7 weeks 3 days. I had a feeling I wouldn't miscarry it because I was further a long. I really hate my body at this moment. Why can't I keep a baby?? Right now my belly is so swollen, like I have a baby bump or something. I really want my son to have a sibling so bad. This sucks 😭😭🥺 when did y'all try again after your miscarriage/miscarriages? I just don't want to go through it again. I got pregnant the following month of my first miscarriage. I just want my body to heal since I was further a long.