I currently dealt with a narcissist bf also was abusive i got preg for him Nd he dosent wants the baby he sends me harsh txt msgs tells me it’s my fault i am keeping the baby he talks bad abt my father who’s in prison and etc and he won’t be there for the kid and so on and the baby won’t mean anything to him and he will not claim the kid as he mentions.

At first i didn’t want to abort the baby but now i am thinking abt this situation and how bad he has hurt and verbally abused me and betrayed me i dnt want any ties from him or anything to do with him i don’t want to deal wit him for the rest of my life and also he won’t ever be there as well as support he will be a deadbeat father and i dnt want the drama with child support and so on .

I am 23 in the military and ikno that i can finically support the baby but i just don’t want to deal with him he is a very toxic person . Also, my family is 12 hours away there is childcare but in the military i have duties and deployments to do and it would be hard finding someone to take care of my kid while going away for a month or a week or so this has also caused single mothers to get kicked out but not many. So i am getting an abortion Saturday but very emotional tht i am getting it but i am also firm with my decision bc ikno it’s the best for me and i can move on with my life and not deal wit him anymore and start over and find someone better in the future to start a family with. Is this normal to feel that way before getting an abortion ? Does this sound selfish ?

I found out my friend is preg and it just makes me feel like shit bc she’s happy and have a finance who’s willing to support her and be there for her and the baby this just make me feel like shit 💔😫