Dear 21 yr old me

I hope one day you find your true love ...which is myself. I hope one day you stop crying to sleep asking God to heal you from the broken heart you carry. One day to realize YOURE SO AMAZING WVEN ID NOONE SEES IT... so blinded by trauma and insecurity... i just need a tiny grain of self love. To be able to see myself in the eyes of God and know how beautiful I am... as I see everyone else. Why do I feel so unworthy of love that i even deny it to myself... please let this all go away