break ups - its long but i need thoughts 💘
I had 1 year and a half first bf, he was actually really sweet and romantic but we had a bunch of problems when we started, none of us would actually be 100% themselves infront of the other so we tried to change that by me acting "normal" (which is being the clown in the group tbh im funny af) he said he didnt find me funny and then he started being himself, he said he wanted to do all these things like if he was in a music video, he wanted to live a bunch of crazy scenarios but problem is i wasnt comfortable with most of them mainly bc house rules and me being the one driving us everywhere, I was the one who broke up last september and we stopped talking, he went to meet me one time to say he would change and all but i didnt want to be together so that was it. Months later i reached out bc i missed him a bit so we talked about getting back together, i was going to south korea for 5 months so we never came back officially, we talked for months while i was in korea as if we were a couple, once he didnt want me to keep talking to him bc he said i needed to be more independent but still we continued messaging each other, 3 weeks before i came back to mexico he started acting distant, we had fought about the same stuff that made us break up of me not wanting to do certain things, i got jealous bc theres was a girl he went to a festival with and didnt tell me anything about and thats when i started fight over insecurity, i called him and he said he wasnt sure he loved me anymore and he explicity said that "he doesnt know if he like someone and men are allowed to look at other girls and find then attractive" which is true but he had never EVER told me that before, later he tried apologizing saying it was true he had no one in his life and he only wanted me but he needed time and to go to therapy, etc. I was DEPRESSED for a week i would call him and cry and ask why did he change his mind so fast weeks before me coming back to see him, he said he wasnt sure if he wanted to see me on my bday because "my friends hated him" also he wasnt sure when he would reach out again, so i stopped trying and on my very last week i decided to download tinder out of boredom i matched with a really funny korean guy i got along pretty well, i loved his personality so much it was one of the best dates ive ever had and we spent my last 3 days together so i came back and my ex reaches out saying he hopes i made great experiences and wishes me a happy bday, he asks if i want to meet and i say no that its better if we remain like this, next day i go to the beach with my family and he says hes outside my house i tell him that i dont want nothing and that he should leave so he asks me "just one last thing, is the thing you tweeted true?" i have a twitter acc i thought he didnt remember, i barely tweet anymore but i did tweet about me spending 3 days with this boy and how happy i was, (okay i basically said sucking dick for 3 days straight but jsjalnsjd) i said it was true and he said "i wish you the best bye" some part of me knew he had to find out but idk if i wanted him to find out like this ANYWAYS i message him an hour later telling him that i hope he finds a girl he doesnt doubts of and that i wish him the best (and that he deletes ny nudes) that i wasnt what he was looking for he said "what fucked up this relationship is that YOU never trusted me, i wish you the best bye" and he blocked me.... tbh i feel like this was the best choice i could make but is it normal to feel like "wow maybe this couldve had worked in the future but now thanks to this it will never" at the same time he would make these really cute gifts for me and was really sweet with words and all but he would also change his mind really fast and not tell me how he would feel until he was mad or angry... also if i had a chance to choose between the korean guy and him i would choose the korean no hesitation... so i guess thats the answer right? idk tell me your thought on this situation and what yall shouldve done
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