Ive always been very emotional, letting things get to me. Last year my husband had an affair which destroyed my world. I couldn’t believe a man who wasn’t just my husband but was my best friend would cause me so much pain. Not only did he have an emotional affair, he wouldn’t stop talking to the lady even after he had stopped the affair and in arguments he would mention that he still isn’t sure about me. I wanted to make my marriage work so desperately. I was holding on to dear life. The treatment got so bad, so much stress of not being sure if he will stay with me or leave..I’ve always been confident but for some reason even looking back I still don’t understand why I would put up with that or accept to live that life. I let someone else have total control over my life and feelings. My marriage isn’t over still, I’m a few wks pregnant and taking care of myself and the baby but separated from him. I feel so much freedom. When my husband calls about the baby or whatever, I am so much calm and at peace, I know it really confuses him. Whether he hurt me intentionally or not, I know he is sensing this new woman I’m becoming, who will not take any shit from him, will kill him with pure kindness. Never in my life would I let anyone get to me and destroy my peace. I am still healing and have a long way to go. And I will get to a place of total peace where all the hurt I’ve been through will be a distant memory. I don’t have to punish him in anyway because that is not moving forward in my part, I’ll let the universe deal with him if it wishes too. I wish him all the best.