I used to struggle with depression... Like a lot... Up until I met the perfect SO... But not even he could silence my demons haunting me late at night... I have scars on my wrist that tells tales of horror...

Anyway I got all better until the other night... A couple of friends and I got high... Turns out in a group of 5 all of us wanted to kill ourselves in the past...

See I struggle with a combination of ADHD and OCD... Combined they are feeding in me from the inside... When I was high it all just went away... Now I want to do it again... But... I'm scared of getting addicted...especially because I have the greatest SO on earth that is super supportive and caring... He's been with me trough a lot I don't want to put him through more

If anyone has advice for me please... I need it