Venting (long story)

So I’m a mom of 2. I have a six year old and a four month old and i recently got pregnant with my third until i had came to the decision to have a abortion. My reasons varied and it was very difficult. Let me start by saying I’m not financially ready for three im struggling with my two , don’t get me wrong I’m doing OK they have everything but me and my SO have roommates and lease ends in September so we are trying to save up for a new place. We can’t afford a car payment or to buy a bigger car we currently have a vw Jetta sedan And both our girls are in car seats so to fit one more would of been impossible. 😕 i had gestational diabetes my recent pregnancy with my four month old and i am still to this day obese and felt like it would be unhealthy to carry a baby to soon without trying to get into shape before getting pregnant again. I’m only 22. I know these reasons may be stupid to some but they were a lot to me at the time. I just feel so much regret and everyone around me is pregnant all of a sudden and it just makes me think i should of kept my baby and i didn’t and i feel like with all these bad things and sad emotions i deserve because i took the easy way out. My SO didn’t want the abortion but was gonna be there no matter what i chose but he says he doesn’t want no more kids since he got hurt aborting the one we could of had i just feel guilty and sad and regretful