I really don’t know what to do anymore, we see a therapist that is supposed to help us with our issues but it’s just not working.

I feel like every day i’m being emotionally tortured. Last year her comments about my diet and my eating caused me to develop multiple eating disorders. Now whenever I bring that up I’m accused of blaming everything on her.

Now she’s just twisting everything I say and do. If I forget to do my chores one day she’ll say I’m irresponsible and “never do my chores.”

We have a tv show we always watch together as a family because it’s one of the only shows all of us like. I’m the one that originally suggested the show but we all love it. In a recent argument she started going on about how we always just watch the show I want etc.

She talks about how I only ever want what I want which isn’t true at all. I’ve made a huge effort to eat dinner with my family every single day, and to play games with them and talk to them. But nope, it all goes unnoticed and I’m being called a spoiled brat or selfish the next time we argue.

Today’s argument was before dinner, I suggested we watch a show together. My younger sister jumps up and says “yeah, let’s watch it.” This happens normally, so we both grabbed our plates and went to the living room to turn on the tv. She then said we couldn’t watch tv until I did my chore, which annoyed me because the conversation we had merely an hour earlier was about the chore and she said I had to have it done by the end of the day, which I agreed to. So I was frustrated, but went upstairs to do the chore. Fifteen minutes later, she’s storming up my stairs talking about how I never take responsibility and how I didn’t think to ask if they wanted to watch (which I did!) and how it was rude for me to just go ahead to the living room. I said that my sister and I usually just go ahead to the living room and if she thought it was rude she should’ve told me sooner so I could fix it. She then says “oh, then we won’t watch tv anymore, if that’s what you want.” Went on again on how I’m irresponsible, and told me she’s going to turn off my phone (she controls my phone and can turn off the data).

I just don’t know what to do at this point. I’ve memorized her schedule and will wake up on weekends at the times I know she’s at the gym so I can eat breakfast without getting into arguments or hearing her make comments about what I’m eating. I spend most of my time in my room or out with friends/my boyfriend because I feel like every time I go downstairs she’ll be there waiting to attack me about something, which she often is. I get triggered easily which I’m working on, but I feel like she’s blaming all of our arguments and conflict on me being selfish and irresponsible.

I don’t know what to do. I feel trapped, I have very few friends to reach out to. Recently it’s been so bad that I’ve had my boyfriend over every day since friday, my mom loves him so him being over seems to be the only thing that calms everything down. But this week he’s busy, every day I think, so that won’t be an option.