Adulting HELP

Okay so I’m 21 years old but I’m so confused right now😪 like a part of me wants a baby so bad right now like I am craving it (doesn’t help I know my boyfriend isn’t going anywhere & is amazing) but another part of me is like have fun and live your life! But I just want something to love me no matter what.... am I crazy for this? Am I too young to even be thinking about this?.. I see so many people my age doing both, I’m just confused on what I want! Someone give me advise please! Or tell me I’m not crazy😂 the only thing that’s stopping me is money:/